Hare Krishna Prabhujis and Mathajis,
Please accept my humble pranams. All glories to Srila Prabhupada and Srila Gurudev.
Despite understanding the inevitable fact that everything that happens in our life is carefully and meticulously crafted by the Lord for our own benefit, in times of distress, often times we tend to justify the stand that it is not practical to put full faith in Krishna and depend on Him completely and be indifferent to the mental stress and tensions that we may have to go through during such difficult times. In this context, I would like to share my insignificant realization on my most recent experience when I took a decision to relocate myself back to India from Singapore, where I had spent three blissful years of high quality association of the most loving and caring devotees.
Far from having faith on the Lord, I was single pointedly banking on my professional qualifications and overseas experience to embark on a successful career in Mumbai with a top MNC. Things were looking really bright in the beginning with many rounds of interviews with the top names in the industry and at one point of time I was almost on the verge of joining but then nothing seemed to concretely materialize for almost more than three months. Getting uncontrollably anxious and impatient, I had almost given up all hopes to find a job in Mumbai until I got an offer from a slightly low profile company. Krishna by his inconceivable potency put me in a situation where I had to accept the offer out of desperation. Although I was thrilled when I got to know that the office was not far away from Radha Gopinath Temple, I could fully fathom the supreme mercy of the Lord only when I visited the temple on the first day and realized that its only 10 minutes walk from the office. And now, Krishna is allowing me to attend Srimad Bhagavatam class on a daily basis and partake of the prasadam in the temple, before I start my official duties. I sincerely realise that it's only due to the mercy of the Vaishnavas and Guru Maharaj and Gauranga that such an amazing thing has happened and that I do not have any qualifications to take any credit for the same.
The basic fact that led to the anxiety was the lack of firm faith and complete dependence on the Lord in all circumstances of life. The real test is during times of depression when we start feeling that should somehow take the right decisions to solve the problems and come out of the troubled state of affairs at the earliest out of my own endeavor.
As stated by Lord Krishna in Bhagavad Gita 18.57
cetasaa sarva-karmaani / mayi sannyasya mat-parah
buddhi-yogam upaashritya / mac-cittah satatam bhava
In all activities just depend upon Me and work always under My protection. In such devotional service, be fully conscious of Me.
In the purport, Srila Prabhupad has clearly stated that When one acts in Krsna consciousness, he does not act as the master of the world. Just like a servant, one should act fully under the direction of the Supreme Lord.
Prabhupad has further stated that One has no goal in life save and except acting in Krsna consciousness just to satisfy Krishna. And while working in that way, one should think of Krsna only: "I have been appointed to discharge this particular duty by Krishna." While acting in such a way, one naturally has to think of Krishna. This is perfect Krishna consciousness.
From the above purport, we can realize that one should completely follow the directions of the Lord which may come in the form of difficult and trying situations. During these situations, a devotee should follow the instructions of the spiritual master and senior viashnavas and not merely make futile attempts to explore a material solution based on his so called Material Intelligence. When one acts in such a Krishna Conscious way, then it is Krishna who drives all our decisions to put us on the right track towards a Krishna Conscious solution.
Despite our numerous misgivings and offences and our lack of faith in the Lord, Krishna as the Supreme well wisher of all living entities, makes perfect plan for everyone according to what He thinks is best under the given circumstances. This is strikingly evident in my case where my level of faith and dependence on the Lord was miserably low due to my own degraded level of consciousness.
I humbly pray to all vaishnavas to bestow upon me the blessings in order to develop a strong faith and dependence on the Lord.
Thank you very much,
Yours in the service of Srila Prabhupada and Srila Gurudeva,
Gokulanand Gopal das
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