Fixing the Mind on Krishna - Part 10

Hare Krishna Prabhujis and Matajis,
Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada and Srila Gurudeva. 

This is in continuation of the transcription of the nectarean class of our beloved spiritual master HH Mahavishnu Goswami Maharaj on Caitanya Caritamrta Adi-lila verse 2.117 on the occasion of the disappearance of Krishnadas Kaviraja Goswami, author of the great literature Caitanya Caritamrta. In the previous offering we heard 10 points and how Bilvamangala Thakura left his chaste wife after he saw Cintamani, a prostitute. In this offering let us continue to hear more from Maharaj about the life of Bilvamangala Thakura. 

11. Life of Bilvamangala Thakura: After Bilvamangala Thakura started staying with Cintamani, years passed and in his absence his father died because of the painful situation. The son has left the nice young wife in the home and this situation was unbearble for the father of Bilvamangala Thakura. So when he died after one year of his death, the wife wanted to perform some shraddha rites to satisfy the soul of the father-in-law. So she thought that she will go to Cintamani and beg her to allow her husband to come for one day only and the next day she will bring back the husband to her. So she went to Cintamani the prostitute and she requested that, "Please you do somehow or the other and can you please send my husband for one night? And I promise you that tomorrow again I will bring him back to you". So somehow because she was a chaste lady, pati-vrata, Cintamani her heart also melted and she thought that it is better to send Bilvamangala Thakura for one day. So she forced Bilvamangala Thakura to go there and perform the rites and come back immediately. 

So he went there. He went there for a day and he had to stay there for the night and next day morning  she would have accompanied him and brought him back to this prostitute's place - Cintamani's place. But this one, this Bilvamangala Thakura could not spend one night of separation from Cintamani. So rascal mind you see. See how the mind freaks out. It was so very raining very hard. There was a storm. And there was river in-between his home and Cintamani's home. The river was full of water and there was flood in the river. It was impossible to cross the river that night. Bilvamangala Thakura got up at 11'o clock in the night and started going somewhere. As soon as his wife saw that he has gone out, she followed him. In darkness she could not follow him, because he went down the river and she thought that he has gone up the river. So both were separated completely. He went down and she went up. And she didn't find Bilvamangala Thakura and she didn't know what to do. Then she though, what is the use of this life? Husband is gone. He is attracted to prostitute. Father-in-law is also gone. Now there is nothing to do in this world. So she jumped into the river and was dead. This Bilvamangala Thakura was completely meditating on the prostitute and was shouting, 'Cintamani, Cintamani'. Instead of 'Krishna, Krishna', Cintamani was there. As soon as Cintamani takes the grip of his mind, Krishna vanishes and all inebrieties come. So he was shouting Cintamani's name. 

And he wanted to cross the river somehow or the other. It so happened that he found a log of wood floating. He thought that it is a log of wood. So he caught hold of it and tried to cross the river. Here his wife had died and that was not log of wood, but it was the dead carcass of his wife. And he just caught hold of it and could not know that it was dead body. He said, "O Cintamani, how she is kind. She has sent me the log of wood to cross the river!" He couldn't see. Just see how the mind completely freaks out. And in the dead of night, catching the dead carcass of his wife, he crossed the river. And he went the other side. It was raining very hard and the doors of Cintamani's house were closed. It was 1 am in the morning. He saw some rope hanging from the roof. So he said, "Hey Cintamani - how nice you are, you have kept the rope ready for me." He caught hold of the rope, climbed on to the roof and jumped into the compound. There was some noise and the servant woke up. So he went to Cintamani's room and he said, "O Cintamani, how kind you are! I have come to see you. I couldn't bear the separation. You had sent me log of wood and also kept rope here ready for me to climb. How nice you are! Our love is really divine." And she was very upset. "Why did you cross the river and how did you do it?" When he said about the log and rope, they went outside to see what it is and found that the log was the dead carcass of his wife and the rope was a serpent. He didn't know that it was serpent. Blinded by lust and this lust complete destroyed him that he couldn't recognise his first wife, he couldn't recognise the dead-body. This is how even if one sense drags us away from Krishna, then our life is completely destroyed. This is the main thing to be understood.

Krishna willing we shall hear more nectar from Maharaj in the subsequent offerings.

Thank you very much.
Yours in service of Srila Prabhupada and Srila Gurudeva,
Sudarshana devi dasi.