Kotim tyaktva harim bhajet

Dear Devotees,
Hare Krishna. Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada and Srila Gurudev.

I had a phone conversation with H H Mahavishnu Goswami Maharaj and he was giving me some deep, thought-provoking instructions. I wanted to share with you all whatever I could grasp, because I am not sure if I will follow them, at least you all can get benefitted. When I was calling Maharaj, I was disturbed in my mind for some reason and the moment Maharaj heard my voice, he said, "Is everything alright Kalacakra? You sound different than usual!". Of course, the spiritual master knows everything! He is directly in touch with Krishna!

He didn't ask me what was troubling me, (of course he must be knowing my problem already, due to his transcendental disposition), but gave me kind and loving advice based on shastras and personal experience. Every word he spoke was so nectarean! During the conversation, I strongly felt that Maharaj was making me understand how low and fallen I am (of course with his love and purity), at the same time was helping me to realize that the Lord is mercifully waiting to help us always! This is a very tricky and almost impossible task, especially in spiritual life. It is not too difficult to advise or give instructions to others, but the special qualification of the Spiritual Master is that his purity induces us to take those instructions and strive to put them into practice. Additionally, if we waver away (as it always happens) from following the instructions, with utmost patience and compassion, he grabs us and leads us again back home, back to Godhead.

Coming back to his instructions..., Maharaj started with the quote, "kotim tyaktva harim bhajet" - Give up millions of activities and take up devotional service to Lord Hari. He was relating this to a very interesting verse in Srimad Bhagavatam 4.22.32, "There is no stronger obstruction to one's self-interest than thinking other subject matters to be more pleasing than one's self-realization." He said, "How important it must be to perform devotional service? kotim tyaktva harim bhajet! But our mind wanders all over, not showing any interest in Krishna consciousness!". I told, "Maharaj, it is not difficult for me to chant some extra rounds, but my mind is not in the names! It runs all over!". Maharaj stopped briefly and continued, "The important thing is we have to engage ourselves in the service. Our behaviour is not improving. We do so many things in the name of devotional service, but as a devotee we are not improving our character. That is why if you see, 90% of the scriptures are instructions for us to improve our character and behaviour! Only 10% of the verses are descriptions of Krishna, Spiritual world etc."

Seeing that I am not getting the point, he continued, "Yesterday also we saw here, in Bhagavad gita, we read the 19 verses from 2.54 to 2.72. Out of these 19 verses, 18 verses are general instructions to improve our own behaviour. Only in the last verse, 'eṣā brāhmī sthitiḥ pārtha....brahma-nirvāṇam ṛcchati' - we are given a slight glimpse of Krishna's transcendence. The essence is that, unless we improve our behaviour, we cannot attain Krsna."

He went on quoting a deeply introspective verse in SB 11.2.49, "Everything has its own dharma. We cannot separate the dharma from the entity. We cannot separate the heat and light from the fire. It is its nature. A child's nature also is to go to its mother. And for our soul also, it is natural to go to Krishna. It is its dharma. We cannot separate it. Similarly, this samsara also has its dharma, the modes of material nature. Since we are in this material world, invariably, it comes in between us and Krishna. But we should not be bewildered by this. avimuhyamānaḥ (one who is not bewildered), is a very important word. Everything in this world is decaying - time, money, health, beauty everything! Our body is decaying, the life air is harassed by hunger and thirst, the mind is always in anxiety, intelligence always hankers for that which cannot be obtained (śocatikāṅkṣati). But an unbewildered person always knows the inevitable miseries of the material existence, remains aloof from it and engages always in remembering the Lotus Feet of the Lord. If we are situated like that, then there is no Kali Yuga at all!! We will be always happy! Now..., I am not interested in Television. So this whole Television industry does not touch me at all! So many advertisements, so many different brands, competition, confusions..., nothing is affecting me. I am totally free! Just see, if by giving up this one attraction to television, we can become so relaxed, then how happy we can become by giving up all the desires!?"

He finally ended the conversation with the most loving words, "Don't worry my son! Please keep calling me whenever you feel like. May Lord bless you!"

It is easy to write fancy words to describe the love of such pure devotees, but to actually feel them in the core of our heart requires genuine humility and surrender to such an extraordinary love. I hope by the mercy of all you wonderful devotees, I may get it someday!

Thank you very much
Yours in service of Srila Prabhupada and Srila Gurudev,
Kalacakra Krsna das.