Vaishnava Humility

9th Sep 2003
Kalacakra Krsna das

Dear Devotees,
Hare Krishna. Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada and Srila Gurudev.

Yesterday was the Appearance day of Srila Sacidananda Bhaktivinoda Thakur. Bhaktivinoda Thakur, as many of us know, was a great Acharya in our sampradaya and he was a stalwart devotee who led the revival of Lord Sri Caitanya's Sankirtan movement. It is very important for all of us who follow the path of devotional service, to try to study the life of these great personalities, because their life is in-and-out based on the scriptures. One of the most amazing contribution of Bhaktivinoda Thakur was his deep, introspective, devotional Bhajans. In those Bhajans, Thakur had put himself in the role of a common soul like us to help us understand our real position and work towards our actual goal. We read Srila Prabhupada's purport for one of the most deep, humble prayers written by him, named "Amara Jivan" - ("My Life") from a collection called "Saranagati".

True Realization comes when we go deep in our hearts and simply, honestly accept the anarthas in our heart. As soon as we accept our fallacies sincerely and seek the shelter of the Lord whole-heartedly, the Lord will take over the whole show. This is Vaishnava Humility.

PURPORT by His Divine Grace A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada:

āmāra jīvana,  sadā pāpe rata. This is a song sung by Bhaktivinoda Thakura in Vaisnava humbleness. A Vaisnava is always meek and humble. So he is describing the life of the people in general, taking himself to be one of them. He says that “My life is always engaged in sinful activities, and if you try to find out, you will not find even a trace of pious activities—only sinful activities.” And parere udvega,  diyāchi je koto,diyāchi jīvere kleśa: “I am always inclined to give trouble to other living entities. That is my business. I want to see that others are suffering, and then I enjoy.” nija sukha lāgi’,  pāpe nāhi ḍori: “For my personal sense gratification, I accept any kind of sinful activity.” doyā-hīna swārtha-paro: “I am not at all merciful, and I see only to my personal interest.” para-sukhe duḥkhī,  sadā mithya-bhāṣī: “As such, when others are suffering I become very happy, and I am always speaking lies. Even for ordinary things I am accustomed to speaking lies.” para-sukhe duḥkhī,  sadā mithya-bhāṣī: “And if someone is suffering, that is very pleasant to me.” aśeṣa kāmanā,  hṛdi mājhe mora: “I have got lots of desires within my heart, and I am always angry and falsely prestigious, always puffed up with false pride.” mada-matta sadā,  viṣaye mohita: “I am captivated by subject matters of sense gratification, and I am almost crazy.” hiḿsā-garva vibhūṣana: “My ornaments are enviousness and false pride.” nidrālasya hata,  sukārye virata: “I am conquered by sleep and laziness, and I am always averse to pious activities.” akārye udyogī āmi: “And I am very enthusiastic to perform impious activities.” pratiṣṭha lāgiyā,  śāṭhya-ācaraṇa: “I always cheat others for my prestige.” lobha-hata sadā kāmī: “I am conquered by greediness and always lusty.” e heno durjana,  saj-jana-varjita: “I am so fallen, and I have no association with devotees.” aparādhi nirantara: “I am an offender always.” śubha-kārya-śūnya: “In my life there is not a bit of auspicious activity”; sadānartha-manāḥ: “and my mind is always attracted by something mischievous.” nānā duḥkhe jara jara: “Therefore, at the fag end of my life I am almost invalid by all such sufferings.” bārdhakye ekhona,  upāya-vihīna: “Now in my old age I have no alternative”; tā’te dīna akiñcana: “therefore by force I have now become very humble and meek.” bhakativinoda,  prabhura caraṇe, kore duḥkha nivedana: “Thus Bhaktivinoda Thakura is offering his sad statement of his life’s activities at the lotus feet of the Supreme Lord.”

Thank you very much.
Yours in Service of Srila Prabhupada and Srila Gurudeva,
Kalacakra Krsna das.